Delays, Loneliness, and confidence

Well it has been at least two weeks since i Last blogged. i'm sure some of you were wondering What had happened to me during those two weeks. Let me sum up my week in Wichita Ka, When we arrived my roommate and i took a walk to the gas station to get something to eat, she met up with some guys that were not very good and they hit it off real well. Later that week she brought the guys into our room, ( that is a strict no no in the company) while i was sleeping. I learned that i was a lot braver and more calm and collected than what i thought i was during that situation. Needless to say she got fired, i gained two new roommates during that week, one up and stole my roommate Brittney's computer and left the company. I also learned which guys, i could trust and which ones i couldn't, from the situation. The next week we moved to Lincoln, Nebraska, where i had the worst sales week ever, gained two more room mates. Brittney that had her computer stolen, found out she was pregnant and was sent home. The head manager came back from Vacation with his wife and baby daughter.  During this entire time i leaned what the meaning of loneliness really is. While i have already gone through, four roommates in the last week, i learned that i couldn't rely on them in the way that i would have liked. They either lied, caused trouble or stole. I love them and showed them kindness as i knew that Christ would. I have gained some respect from my male co-workers and friendship  Nothing replaces the fellowship of the Christian Believer, I was given the chance to go to Church during those two weeks. When i walked in i was welcomed and loved, something i hadn't realized i missed until i went. i was desperate and hungry for the preaching, something i took for granted while i was at school. during the entire week i couldn't shake the feeling that i was totally and completely alone. I couldn't share my feelings with my "friends" or my roommates. They came to me for advice and a listening ear. My college friends were busy with their own lives, and since the internet didn't work well in Nebraska i couldn't get online, what was left to me was my cell phone which didn't work during the day, due to the fact that cell reception is limited in small towns, so even asking for prayer from my parents was difficult to do. I was frustrated and sad, i would cry alone in my room or in the shower, begging God to let me talk to someone who could sympathize, or pray for me after a long day of work. My confidence in being able to do the job, was wavering, i honestly didn't think that i could do the job until, i was reminded that i cant compare myself to those that have done this job for years, i'm still training. God wants me here, I have to remember that as i wake up every single day.